Last night, I dreamt I had a penis. Which is fine, I’m nonbinary and I like playing with gender. In the dream, my sexual partner used a word for penis I dislike. It wasn’t the word “wiener” but let’s say it was. In the dream, my partner used the word “wiener” multiple times. And within the dream, I felt uncomfortable. “Why are you using this word?” except I thought it, as if I was appealing to my brain, instead of saying it to my sexual partner.
I woke up feeling grossed out. Not upset, angry, or sad, just icky.
Stranger still, it wasn’t like I had recently encountered the word “wiener.” My brain wasn’t processing something that had happened that day, or a recent book I’d read or move I’d seen. It just decided to pull up a word I dislike, and that I mentioned within the dream I disliked.
So who is in charge of that? Why would my brain do that? As an atheist, I find this all very, very frustrating.
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