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Torture
I had a dream last night about The Hunger Games. I find the world of The Hunger Games fascinating, and I go through periods of hyperfixation. Images or ideas get stuck in my brain…
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2025 Wrap Up
The monthly stats showed a clear improvement after I started the prazosin and then when I had my “breakthrough.” But the yearly data shows just how much of a difference medication and CBT-I made.…
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Musical Interlude IV: Christmas
Today is Christmas Day, and as I look out my living room window onto a still rather green landscape, “I’m dreaming of a white Christmas” popped into my head. The song “White Christmas” is…
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American Healthcare
I have insurance through my husband’s job. His job is changing insurance companies in 2026. Will I get to keep seeing my current doctor(s)? Will I have to beg to continue using my current…
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A Breakthrough
One night, after a therapy session earlier in the day, I tried to get to sleep. My mind flitted, as it normally did and does, from all the reasons why I’m a bad person…
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Musical Interlude III: Time Travel
I found some old videos of my dad’s band. It was like he was talking to me across the decades. What did we talk about? Dreams and sleep.
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The Long Mornings
Waking up early was difficult because of the anxiety. If I was awake at 9:30, surely it was for an appointment or meeting, not. . .just because.
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Bedtime Stories
After my parents died, my identity as a Night Owl seemed like a way to keep a living connection to them. But being a Night Owl was messing up my life.
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What Are the Good Things?
Why did I seek treatment, and why do I continue despite how difficult it is much of the time?
I just wanted to get some rest.
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